Weekly update

I haven’t been following my diet properly this week. Will be getting back on the wagon tomorrow.

I’m on the brink of making a big decision, which might counteract another big decision I made a couple of months ago. This is kinda stressing me out.

Shaun of the dead is awesome and Pegg is the shit!  I can’t believe I put off watching it for so long.

Lightning bug is my current favorite app. I can’t sleep without it.

I got one of my favorite perfumes (Burberry) as a gift from my work colleagues.

My birthday dinner was great: there were good friends, there was dancing, and there was hazelnut cake.

One happy gal

 

27 things

I’ve been meaning to do this for a long time. So here goes:

1. I always sleep with the TV on, and there’s a hammer in my nightstand. Just in case.
2. I’m furiously protective of people I care about.
3. I’m also terrified of losing a loved one and sometimes stay up thinking about it.
4. My first memory was of me playing by the door, waiting for my dad to get home from work.
5. I don’t watch horror movies, ever! I’ve yet to find someone willing to watch “Shaun of the dead” with me.
6. Anything underwater scares the living daylights out of me. I can’t even swim in a pool alone.
7. I get easily overwhelmed, quickly lose my temper, but the tiniest thing can make me smile again.
8. No matter how nice you seem, or how much others like you, if I have a bad feeling about you, it will probably never go away. Also, my feelings are almost always right.
9. I have a very random, eclectic (and sometimes weird) taste in music, books, and movies.
10. When I was 7, I almost went blind because of measles fever.
11. My aunt’s dog bit me when I was 2, because I went into its  house and woke it up. I still carry the scars on my right calf…
12. …it didn’t seem to get to me though, I wanted to be a veterinarian up until my 12th year.
13. I have a really hard time expressing my love for people, but I do it through gestures.
14. Morning is not my thing. That is, until coffee hits my system.
15. I hate raw tomatoes, overripe bananas and am allergic to sole
16. I still regret saying no to dating my crush back when I was 14. I still think it could have been a turning point in my love life.
17. I’ve only recently started liking myself and accepting who I am as a person. And let me tell you, I’m awesome (most of the time :D).
18. A friend once stole a spoon for me from a café because I liked it. It made me love him more!
19. Hands are what I check first in a guy, his face comes second. I also have a huge thing for redhead men.
20. I’m very accepting of all kinds of people but very guarded about what I share with them.
21. I could eat sushi and tom kha gai every single day. I also make a mean cheesecake.
22. I regret moving back to my country so quickly. But I’m thinking about moving away soon.
23. Guilt and body issues took away big chunks of my self esteem, which I’m slowly rebuilding.
24. Nail polish is one of my obsessions. I (proudly) own 70+ bottles.
25. My other obsession is perfume.
26. I’ve had more than ten different addresses since 2002. Had never moved once before that.
27. I’m 27 today. Older, but probably not wiser. And that’s quite alright with me!

Hits & Misses

This week’s misses:

– Falling off the diet wagon

– Guilt trips: food related and unfood related

– Boys. They suck (enough said)

– Snotty, arrogant, obnoxious clients who act like they actually own us

– Feeling lost and confused

– Screwed up sleep pattern

And hits : 

– Getting on the diet wagon again

– My family, which I’m VERY thankful for, despite how mad they drive me sometimes

– Sending a job application to that company that makes my eyes shine (fingers crossed)

– Early b-day presents: Owl ring and daisy earrings from my sisters + pink Ipod from yours truly to replace the one that got stolen (yay self-pampering! )

– Finding time to process my photos

– That amazing other client who writes her email in caps and adds way too many “!!!!” to thank us and express how happy she is with the new campaign

– Finally, this quote, which made me think and comforted me at the same time

One of those days

Today is one of those days when I’m…

Dwelling on my past, and my mistakes (especially those)

Feeling stuck, repeating that same failed pattern over and over again

Focusing too much on the negatives, too little on the positives

Feeling like I’m heading the opposite way of, well, everything

Knowing I need change, yet not knowing where to start

…in short, today is not a good day. Terribly overwhelming!

Cruisin’

So Today was the first day of the loooong cruise phase ahead.

I started the day with a skim milk latte and oatmeal. I had missed vegetables so yesterday I prepared a huge zucchini stir fry for today’s lunch, with chunks of chicken breast,  onion, tomatoes and green hot peppers. It turned out very okay because I used too much lemon to marinate the chicken and the tomatoes made it more acidic. Needless to say, I left half of it, and was famished by 4.00.

To make matters worse, a supplier sent me chocolates for the new year, and it was all I thought about all afternoon.  I tried not to cave when I got the box home, but couldn’t help eating 4 chocolates. Afterwards, I felt guilty, disgusted of my self and decided I’d give them to my mother. It’s always a good strategy to get rid of the temptation.

To make up for my faux-pas, I’ll have to do two days of pure-protein. And hopefully this will not wreck my diet too much. Guess I’ll wait and see.

In other news, starting tomorrow, I’ll be adding a new recipe section to this blog. I’ll post hits (and probably misses) in the kitchen department. They will mostly be Dukan-friendly (duh!), but on special occasions, some may not be. So stay tuned!

 

Day 3 + weekend update

Dieting is no piece of cake (hah! pun). Everyday is a struggle, but for me it’s worse on week-ends. That’s when temptation strikes the hardest. Surprisingly though, despite my fear, this week-end went by like a breeze. I didn’t so much as wince. I looked it right in the eyes and kicked its ass (aaah these blissful beginnings).

Currently, my main intakes consist of lean ground meat, chicken breasts, eggs, fat free ricotta, plain yogurt, and Tabasco sauce to spice things up. And coffee. Lots of it! I’m also supposed to have oat bran, but I’ve mistaken it for oat flakes, which are apparently not allowed at this stage, so I haven’t been having that, until I find a store that carries it.

It’s getting boring. Only have two more days of this before the veggies (never thought I’d ever miss those!). But until I’m screaming at random people on the street, or crying hysterically in damp, dark corner, I know I’m fine.

Ok, I’m off to take care of some cheezy meatballs. And by take care, I mean mercilessly wolf down.

Nighty night!

False start

According to Dukan, one tiny lapse during the attack phase is like putting a needle in a balloon.

My needle today consisted of a few branches of cauliflower and three forkfuls of pepper salad. My mom’s friend invited me over for lunch. Her 75+ mom made the food, and insisted I try a bit of everything. She thankfully made roasted chicken as a main course. But as I discovered later, even with fighting off dessert, my diet day could not be saved :/

So, here’s take two on the Attack:

Here we go again

In the past few months:

– I moved three times;

– Changed jobs. And can now officially change my status to: Exploited;

– Made new friends. And lost one;

– Had my heart bruised a couple of times, and kinda bruised one in the process

…soooo, I’m back to square one in the weight department with freshly picked bad habits (damn you Milka Wafers) and healthy amounts of guilt.

Of course I had been trying to get back on the wagon but never for long unfortunately due to the factors (erm…excuses) cited above.

As of today though, a new diet plan has been set in motion: DUKAN

Below are my diet stats as per the official site.

According to their predictions, I will be the proud owner of a new body on Oct 30th, 2012. So yay in advance for that.

Well, this is it for now, so…Goodnight, ding-ding-ding-ding-ding!!

Weigh-in #10

Ok. So I wasn’t enthusiastic about that whole protein week/veggie week. I prefer having a little variety in my meal plan, so I’m back to counting calories.

Latest weight : 112 kgs (247 lbs)

Current weight: 112 (247 lbs)

Total loss : 0 kg (0 lbs)

Workout: Only a one-hour workout. Busy week :(

Food: staying at 1400/1500 cals a day.

Status: No loss no gain, not happy not sad!

Today, I’ve decided to be happy…

… because it’s Friday.

… because I’m going home to my parents and sisters this week end.

… because I’m back on track with my weight loss/exercise.

… because I also allow myself a treat once a week (welcome to my butt chocolate cupcake. Yes you too frosting ^^).

… because my hair is shiny, I smell delicious and my nails are neon pink.

… because of this song:

 

In the end, I’m happy because even though life is messy, and the future down right scary, a small part of me know that it’ll be ok.

What makes you happy today?